... distract myself from my boredom.. I don't go out because people annoy me and are judgmental pricks. I have one best friend and she has a boyfriend so where drifting away, I aren't actually ugly I'm very pretty and people told me I should be a model, its just I have very low self esteem and I'm very shy.. I want to have friends , go out on the weekend have a boyfriend but it just seems it's never gonna happen.. My teenage years are shit so far what do I do?? :(