I am a college freshman this year and have been at school over a month. I am completely miserable here. I have always dealt with mental health issues just never really talked about them to people. I attend a small LAC in the middle of no where. There is nothing within 90 miles to do and it is very boring on campus as well. I feel so trapped and claustrophobic here, like I can't even breathe. I only live about an hour and 50 minutes from the school so I have been home every weekend but these next few weeks I'm not sure if I will be able to go home and that scares me. I also think some contributing factors to me being so miserable is the fact that I miss my family greatly. I am a very closed off person and don't find it easy to connect with people on a deeper level. My family makes me so happy to be around which is rare for me. I struggle with being happy as well. I have never wanted to be home and with my family more than I ever had at this point. I want to move back home after first semester and go from there. I also play basketball here and regret my decision to play. If I was not playing basketball I would have never came here. In all honesty I'm not sure why I chose to play college basketball, I think it is because that is the only way I can identify myself, with the sport. I say to myself often why did I come here and have began to realize that I made a very rash last minute decision to commit here in April. There is nothing glamours about this place. I feel like I am in hell. I have put myself out there and done things that I would never do and have tried to get involved on campus. I have never quit anything in my life so this is not a trend for me. I am very hardworking but this is taking a drain on me mentally and it is not good for me. So with that being said, should I leave at semester and transfer to a local community college back home for the spring semester and see what happens from there? Would I be a coward to quit the team in the middle of the season? Although I am just on the jv team because I am a freshman. My mom said I just need to make it a semester and after that I can do as I choose but I don't want to feel like I am letting my family down. I also feel as though it is time to do something for me, something that I truly want and not be so scared about making a decision.
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If I made a decision, I'd finish the semester here. Then I would go to a local community college. This is the safest way for you, your team, your family. Tune in to the positive, try to find the positive aspects of learning. You might even change your mind over time and love this place. And if not, then you'll go to another college without regrets.