My boyfriend has always said that he wants to get engaged, not just be together in the future, but that he actually wants to be married. He has always said if he had the money he'd do it tomorrow.
We are going on holiday on Saturday, our first trip away together, to a place that is very romantic. 3 months ago he admitted he'd planned to ask me on the holiday, even planned where to do it. Yes he was drunk at the time, but he then (when sober) told his mum and sister, and his mum even gave him £100 towards a ring! I have been understandably thrilled, planning the trip to be perfect, champagne in the room on arrival, had my hair extensions and nails done so i look good when he does it, and dreaming of returning home with a fiance.
Now he has finally admitted he isn't going to do it. His sister told her friends who then told other people and he was annoyed about that, and he hasn't got a lot of money either. Now he has hit me with the bombshell that it isn't going to happen, stating money and the fact that everyone knows his plans now! I don't want an expensive ring, i've told him that, i've seen a beautiful Tiffany silver "i love you" band for only £80 which would be perfect and he could afford since his mum gave him £100.
I am so upset, I have been crying for 2 days, told him how upset i am and his reply was "sorry i'm sh*t"!!! His sister is pregnant and i just wanted some good news of our own to share too- I've been plagued with bad health this year, and for the last 3 months it's been making me so happy, through the rough times, knowing we are going to get engaged and my dream will come true.
I don't want to make him feel bad, but i am so upset and dissapointed, feel like i don't want to go on the trip, that everyone will wonder why he didn't propose when they ask when we return, they will think something is wrong with me/our relationship when there isn't. He says every day he wakes up to me is like a dream come true, so why is he being like this? I have said i don't need an expensive ring, I just want to be engaged and planning a future with him, and he has always said that's the main thing!
What can i do? I feel like everything is slowly being ruined, and i am now questioning his love for me :(
I am 29 he is 28