Don't ask me why, don't convince me otherwise, I'm tired of explaining, tired of people trying to convince me to stop, I'm wired differently, just like any individual is to the rest of the world. Right, conversation over, now all I want is answers.
Why. Don't. I. Get. Sick.
I've had dozens of ticks bite me, none of them give me Lyme disease. No poisonous bugs, arachnids, or animals live anywhere near me so I can't try poisons, and I'm still too young to travel.
I've had people in hospitals with diseases like the flu and other infectious diseases spit into a cup, I've turned 50% of their spit into a spray, which I would inhale, and the other 50% I would swallow. I would eat crap all month, avoid anything healthy, avoid drinking, avoid sleeping, I'm always stressed, yet nevertheless I'm fit as a horse. Heck I'm fitter than a horse.
WHY CAN'T I GET A FREAKIN' COLD AT LEAST. What the heck did I do to be this healthy????? Why, of all the people in the world, did I get an immune system this intense??
Please, PLEASE, just tell me, is there anything I can do to catch the flu? Or a cold? A.S.A.P? I've been trying for 7 years now. Ever since I was 10. Ever since I recovered from appendicitis. And just if you're wondering, my appendix did burst, I never got surgery, I should have died, but here I am.
People look at me all the time, like, wow, she's so lucky.
This is honestly nothing more than a living hell for me though, so please, please tell me you can help me.
Oh my gosh, you think I haven't met people like you before? To me, you're no better sounding than I am to you. I'm sorry if I'm coming across as angry, it's just that I can never come out with it to anyone in person. Please try to understand me here, I'm put in a position very similar to someone who was gay in the 1900s or whatever. Forced to live a certain way, no one to talk to about it. It makes you go mad. I've always been this way, and I need pain to survive. Ironically, it's because I don't ever get pain that I constantly feel like I'm dying.
Do you not understand? I DON'T want to die!! That's why I need something, even if it's as a simple as a cold! Don't think for a second I'm as sweet and kind as all you're beloved peers who sympathize with those who are less fortunate. For people to sympathize with people who have the flu, makes me angry. It's like someone sympathizing with someone who won the lottery. It does not make sense to me. It's more than that, it's infuriating. For people to hate what I love is just never fair. But it's more than that even, it's like people hate me for loving what I love.
Oh gosh I hate people like you, instantly going off the second something seems "not right".
Look again, I'm sorry if I seem angry, the truth really is simple that I am angry though. If you could just try and see things from my perspective though... This is hell for me... Rather than try to accuse me for it, can't you try and feel with me first?