It's a reoccurring thing with me. Just today, someone In public was making really obnoxious noises and sounds as a joke and the first thing that came to mind was stabbing his eyes out. And I really felt like I had to do that. I was shaking and crying because of how hard it was to hold myself back and I tried to tear my hair out. I can't find any reason for it, and after he stopped making the noises I calmed down. Could there be something wrong with me mentally? Would that be a personality/emotional disorder? I really need help with this. (And I can't go to a therapist for personal reasons, so getting help from one is out of the question)