It's kind of complicated, I've kind of come here as a last resort. (not up to talking to my doctor because I don't want to worry my family) but sometimes I wake, up and I feel like I am the most amazing, confident person in the world. Then snap, in a half second that can change to feeling worthless, or not good enough. Once I even contemplated suicide. Though my "other state" came to save me. Then I said I would never do such again. Of course when I switched over that wasn't the case. It's hard to explain. But it's making school work harder, and life in general difficult, especially because I hide it. I don't want my friends and family to worry about me.