while talking with friends or meeting with new friends, i sometimes feel fear, dont understand any word, stop talking and sometimes eye contact too. i become very depressed when i get back into home. the thoughts come through my mind is if the other guy threatens or insults me to fight, i wouldnt fight him back and leave the situation. it makes me very sad why i cant fight with him. i remember the memories of my past, in every similar situation, i went to face it, felt fear, didnt fight and left. when people makes fun about hitting me, i also feel fear and dont understand what to do there. but i dont want to live in fear like this, i just want to be confident, be a very good person. i had social phobia and i came around it, but this negetive thought is really making me frustrated. i just dont want to make bad situation or hurt someone, but if anyone tries to do it with me, can i protect mine or stand like how i want to? that works in me.
