After I dropped out, out of my college I was quite devastated. I dropped out because it was way too hard for me, and I didn't understand much of anything. So i decided to try going to college again, just cuz I wanted to try again. So the winter semester started and I was quite pumped, I wanted to study and get good at programming. I'm a IT student. But 3 out of our 5 classes have nothing to do with IT. One of them is engineering, the drawing is really killing me. As the weeks progressed I started feeling less motivated to study, they started giving us assignments, and from then on I've lost all the motivation I had at the start of the semester. Now I even have hard time getting myself to study at all, I find myself playing games, most of the day. I'm telling myself that I need to study if I want to get my degree. I have no idea why, but it seems like I lost all the motivation I had. Now I can't even study for a easy test we have, it's like something is preventing me from studying. It's probably my self consciousness telling me "You failed once, why are you even trying". I seriously don't know what's happening to me, I never had problems like these before, I was a good student in high school. This is getting really long, so I hope that the ones that will be reading this, won't get bored. But I really feel like I need some kind of help from somebody, otherwise I'll end up dropping out again, and that would hurt me even more. Plus my parents and grandparents really want me to finish this. I really want to get a degree in IT as well. Hopefully somebody can help me overcome this inexplicable situation I'm in. If you guys manage to help me I will be really grateful.
Thanks in advance.