All I have is church and bible study. I enjoy spending time with my friends but for the rest of the week I literally have nothing to wake up to. those are the only things keeping me sane. I have no work history and no reliable transportation, no skills etc. I cannot even join the military because I was born with a heart condition. I also live in Reno, which happens to be one of the worst places to live in the US in terms of trying to find a job. I can't move right now so that's out of the question.

I know this sounds dramatic but I often fantasize about leaving on a boat or an airship. it's literally that bad for me at the moment.