Now im a boy stuck inside the wrong body. Growing up I always had problems with myself growing up as a girl. I was not happy about growing breast and wanted them gone so bad but at some point I got used to them but they still bugged me. I would always wear hoodies to make my chest look flat. Now at the time I dident know what that meaned, i just thought I was a tomboy because everyone called me that. As I got older there was more I wasn't ok with, I hated make up and anything girly at all, I would fight with my mom for hours about having to wear a dress. Then my friends were all into girly stuff and so I was quickly put to the side of the group because I dident like the same stuff. I liked sports, video games, guns, skate boarding. They started bullying me for it and thus caused me to go into a deep depression and I was hospitalized several times. I found myself blaming myself for it though and would self harm to ease the pain inside me. I dident understand what was wrong with me, I constantly questioned myself. My friends started getting crushes and of course I got a crush on some girls, I found myself also getting jealous of my fellow few guy friends I had but I dident understand why. I was so depressed and lost in my depression that I couldn't see who I was inside. I switch schools and things started to get better, I made new friends that attually cared about me. Now at this school I started when I was 16 and I started questioning my gender by the end of the yesr. Now I am 18 close to being 19 in a few months and I have came to the concussion that I am transgender after thinking long and hard and watching a lot of videos and reading up on it. So my question is what should l do if I sooo badly want to start my trasition now but I'm scared because my family is not accepting of it and think I'm just crazy pretty much. The thing is I cant wait anymore, the thoughts of killing myself keep getting stronger and I'm so close to the edge now.... Though I cant leave the house because im still in high school finishing up my last year and I also am in dect by 2500 dallors so im a long way from getting my own place. I need help on what to do, because I'm scared I will kill myself if I don't be the person I was meant to be soon.
What to do when people get in the way of being yourself?
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- 3+ months ago by Elliott1077
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First off I am so sorry for the pain you have had to go through. And I want you to know that you are a beautiful person. Sometimes it’s hard for loved ones to understand because they might have grown up in a time we’re being yourself was judged. A lot of times when the people we love try to lash out at us in anger for being who we are it’s not because they hate us or don’t believe us. It’s fear their afraid of the world. Of how society will treat you and it hurts them to think of the pain you have to go through. They are scared of the pain the world could cause you. anger is a projection of fear honey. You said you have urges to kill yourself. I know your not who you want to be yet but I’m 21 we are both so young we have time. Time is beautiful life is a gift use it focus on school. Dress how you want. Go to sporting events with your friends. Do what makes you happy I promise everything will
Fall in to place before you know it you’ll be out of school and you will be able to start your beautiful transition. You are beautiful you will make a handsome man
The way it starts is therapy. You get into therapy with a psychologist who specializes in transgender.
One of your biggest problems is your mouth. Stop flapping your lips telling people anything because you've got nothing to tell them that is any of their business. You don't know anything until you learn about yourself what it all means and how the process works and how long it takes and how much it costs. Look into your education and getting some marketable skills to get yourself a job and pay off your debt and start saving money. If you want to achieve a goal start looking and sounding like some who knows what they are doing. Threatening suicide does NOT make you look like that kind of person and you create your own roadblocks. Nobody else does, you do it by behaving poorly and blabbing personal information. Stop it.
Start researching insurance companies that you will need to sign up with to help pay for your surgeries.
And for heavens sake stop with the juvenile rantings about suicide because you'll get nobody on your side if you start sounding unhinged. So get your poop together and start thinking to the future and how to get all this accomplished calmly and maturely. Ranting whining and threatening isn't going to help your case in the slightest.
www.gay-therapy-ct.com/advice-for-transgender-teens.html
www.glaad.org/transgender/resources
www.transkidspurplerainbow.org/links/
And finally research a TV reality show about a transgender youth (guy) who wants to become a girl. It tells what emotional things transgender deals with, their friends, society, medical etc on the journey to being who they need to be. The show is called I Am Jazz and its on the TLC channel on cable. You might be able to find shows online because its been on at least two seasons.
Good luck!
Darling. It does not matter if your family agrees. If your body is wrong, no matter how many times you lie to yourself and try to deal with it, you will never be content in your body. I was in a similar situation [not wanting to tell your family] and I found, once I did it, I felt more relieved than I ever have. I was born a girl and feel in my heart of hearts that I am male. I am more feminine then some out there, but I am a boy. I couldn't tell my family in the fear of my families retaliation. However, once I told them, it wasn't that bad. If they love you, they will still love you for who you are and if they don't, then you don't need to be around them. You need people who support you and you need to be able to love yourself above all. If you love yourself, you don't need anyone else. Start your transition slowly and work on that debt. Get a binder, dress how you want, and enjoy your life while you have it. If they don't agree, do it anyway. Once you move out and have your life to yourself, you don't need their agreement. Go slow with your transition if your parents don't agree so they don't completely catch on [compression bras work well] and remember that you are beautiful and strong. Your life is worth living.