i do not see myself anymore. i thought it was okay to pretend but i'm in this vault locked up and cannot express what i feel because of fear that somehow i will hurt the people that loves me. i just want to embrace my mom and live with her by my side together with my sister and brother. i do not think i will be able to recognize myself if i continue like this
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Talk to someone. Tell your mom how you are feeling or talk with someone you trust. When you feel scared, alone, or trapped it can be hard to open up to someone. But it also depends on how you mean you fear you might hurt them. Do you mean physically or emotionally? If you feel like you want to physically hurt someone, my advise is to seek professional help.
I know from personal experience, that hurting someone emotionally is a scary thing. The fear of knowing you let them down can be a hard thing to face, whether your telling someone you are gay, on drugs, pregnant, physically hurting yourself or a many number of other things is hard. But it can be over come and there is help out there, you just have to be willing to ask.
Let those who love and care about you, how you are feeling! It is ok to express yourself and be who you want to be! (as long as your not physically hurting people)
You don't have to pretend to be something your not, expressing yourself in a positive way can be helpful.
Sound advice,