Hi I'm 14 years old almost 15 and I'm a female and I feel like my mom doesn't love me sometimes or wants me dead. Okay, starting when I was g8 or 9 I didn't clean up my room and my mom locked me in the cold garage naked and we lived in Washington so it's very cold there. I was just sitting on the cold floor on the Conor of the garage door.and that time my dad was gone bevaice he's in the navy. She would still hit me with a belt,spoon, any thing she could find. But it got worst when i was 13, I was doing homework and one of my games poped up and she came on and saw and my little brother was in the room with me and she said "what did I tell you about playing games and I said I wasn't even ask my brother. Then she told my brother to leave and close the Door, she turned off the light and said now I am going to kill you and started chocking me with a jump rope that I couldn't breath it took her 4-5 min to stop and there was this other time i wanted to committ suicide because of her and I wrote it I'm my diary and she said go ahead do it. I was so upset that she really wanted me
To die. Some times she would even tell me to pack my bags and tell me to leave or she
Will tell me to take my clothes off and go outside. Today I got in trouble because we are staying with some friends until we get
Our house and we sleep ok the boys room and they
Are 2 and 5 and they messed up the room and my pArents blamed me and my mom took me to the bathroom saying I'm a dirty person, I'm lazy, I'm ugly. And she punched me on the stomach and I started
Crying and she. Said keep crying I'll give you something to cry about. And she never done anything like this to my brother and I am happy she didn't. I don't know what to do all o know is that I am depressed all the time and have flashbacks and start crying