I've been to several different doctors, counsellors and psychologists and nobody is helping. They all seem to have conflicting ideas about what is wrong. Some use the excuse "You're a teenager. You'll probably grow out of it." Yes I know there is a chance me emotional problems will not last forever, but I would still like them to be taken seriously. I've been told I have Social Anxiety, Clinical Depression, an Adjustment Disorder, and nothing (meaning I am completely fine). So... yeah. I'm extremely confused and a bit scared because I hate not knowing what's wrong.

For almost 5 months now I have been feeling depressed. And I mean actually depressed, not just "Oh, I'm having a crap day". While some days are easier than others, overall I don't feel happy much. And if I do it doesn't last long. I used to cut myself but I have quit. I've thought about and planned for suicide several times, but never did it (mainly because of my parents... as much as I wanted to die I didn't want them to have to deal with it). I cry over the simplest of things, sometimes for no reason at all. I'm easily irritated and have zero motivation. Sometimes I get physical symptoms like cramps, nausea, headaches. I find it hard to cope with change sometimes. I get weird appetite changes. I wake up incredibly early in the morning and sometimes find it hard to sleep at night. I'm an extremely insecure person. I hate socialising and I always worry what other people think and have this idea in my head that everyone hates me.

Nothing seemed to cause my depressed mood in the beginning. Suddenly one day I just didn't feel right. I get bullied a bit at schools that makes me feel worse sometimes, but I don't see it as the main cause.

Sorry for making this so long. Totally understand if no one wants to answer this. If anyone has ever experienced similar feelings, I guess I'd like to know... well... what was wrong? and how did you deal with it?

Thanks.

Bye