What is this strange feeling/sensation I struggle to describe?
It goes as far back as I can remember. And as far as I can tell it doesn't seem to have a pattern or correlation to my environment or emotions. For a long time I seriously considered that it was something paranormal. I cant really say that it's a physical feeling on/in my body yet its definitely physical in some kind of way. It's not an emotion or thought but a very physical feeling somewhere in my body that i can't quite locate. Which of course led me to believe that it was possibly my soul? I struggle so hard to describe what it feels like cause I just never feel like I can word it justifiably...
I guess I could say that it feels like something physicsl inside of me is separate from me and every so often I can almost numbly feel it's growth or just presence. Sometimes it feels small and sometimes it feels too big for whatevers holding it. That's the closest I can explain it but honestly youd have to feel it yourself to do it any justice with word's. I cannot find answers to this anywhere and I'm desperate to hear the explanation.
But it's as real to me as any other sensation I've felt
What the hell is it?
What is this strange feeling/sensation I struggle to describe?
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