All my life i have been drawn to girls in a weird way but i dont think it has anything to do with my sexuality since it started at a young age for me to understand what sex is and besides am straight, however i still wonder why just girls! So basically When i was around 11 there was this girl who probably was in her mid 20s and to say the least i think i loved her even though one might argue that an 11 year old doesnt know what love is. I moved away and when i turned 15 i felt this strong attraction towards another girl who was in her early 20s and i totally loved her that everybody including my family and hers knew about it (they thought it was adorable). Whats more confusing is that this wasnt the same kind of love i had for other friends or family membrers, its just hard to know which kind of love this was since i wasnt even attracted to them sexually whatsoever but i know it was special. And then around 16 i met this other girl at school and at least for a change she was in my age group. We became best friends and we still are (am 20 now btw). I love her to bits, i would choose her over anything or anyone in the whole world, she is my happines, my hope and my everything, she is definitely way more than just a bestfriend but i dont know what that makes her then. My friendship with her is pretty much like a couple's relationship without the sex part. I would absolutely marry her if she was a guy and she feels the exact same way. So basically my question is how do i separate this love for my best friend from the love i would love my boyfriend because i admit i have never been in love with a guy but i've had a crush on one and i know its diffetent since the crush faded but i love my bestfriend just as much as i did the very first time. I dont think i'll feel anything diferent or stronger than what i feel for my best friend because i would actually say am in love with her which is confusing because i thought you fall in love with someone you are attracted to sexually. if you saw the stupid crazy fun things we do or say when we are together you may think we are a lesbian couple but we are not.