I've been really depressed for a while but I dont show it. I'm very active at school and I try to be positive when I'm around people. Everyone laughs and they like me, but it's when I come home and I'm alone. I like to be alone. It's like I have to convince myself to hang out with my friends. I dread going to hang out and never make plans first, but when I go out I do have fun. My dad passed away in 2012 and I never really finished grieving (suicide) and I feel like now in my senior year of highschool everything is coming crumbling down. I've never been one to let their guard down and not be emotionally stable. I've been crying like everyday this week and I've been skipping school and not going because it's like I just don't care anymore, when I used to care so much about my grades. Not going to school and having all that work and everything is making me more sad because it's not who I am. I just feel like my world is crumbling down and I have a good mom and brother who love me very much. And my friends love me. It's me that's the problem. One day I'm happy and one day I just feel like crying all day. I just want to get back to my oldself. And nobody knows this because I hide it from everyone. I just miss my dad and want him to be here. And I just want to be okay again.
