What can I do to overcome my emptiness?

Question

I'm slowly crumbling. 
I'll write as thoughts come to mind. I'm detaching from who I am as a person. This is my semester in college. I'm in a fraternity so I live a pretty social life and I'm also very smart and have no academic difficulties.  I work a part time job which I love,  I receive allowance from my parents, far more than I need so I really don't have to work, but I want to work.  Recently I've lost interest in everything. I lost my appetite, I don't get excited doing activities but smile to please my friends. Often I stop doing what I do and ask myself  "what I'm I doing here? This isn't me!".  I immediately noticed these changes approximately 2-3 years ago and at this point I've come to a realization that something is wrong and I have to reach out. My siblings are very emotional and loving; however,  I'm indifferent all the times. Since college I hardly call my parents, I love them but I for some reason I don't miss them nor anybody else ( I hate it). Recently I've developed unhealthy activities, I know it's just a phase or a fraternal phase. One night I came home drunk and sat in my bed and THERE I was overwhelmed with real emotions. I felt all the guilt suppressed within me, from religious to breaking away from traditions to my toxic recent activities but I was glad to feel something and noticed a tear go down my cheek, I smiled because I felt alive. I woke up the next day as always empty. I'm empty most of the time, sometimes nothing really goes on in my head, I embrace the concentration at first and the unstressful life, then I realized that I no longer want to be in this amount of emptiness. 

Wow that was a lot. 
I understand this is fragmented in thought but I wrote as stuff came to mind so I'm as honest with my self as I can. 

Thank you,

Answer

Get a simple job and a cheap pad within walking distance. That is so you don't have to waste your money on transportation. Save half of everything you earn. Yes, half. To start, keep your savings in gold or silver coins which you do not store in anybody else's vault. (IOW hide them at home.) Spend your evenings studying investment books at the public library. When you are smart enough then you can make other investments. If you earn ten bux an hour and save half, in only ten years you will have A HUNDRED THOUSAND BUX not counting interest or capital gains or paper profits: only principle. There is no other plan that will give you a net worth above zero in only ten years. And there is no school that will teach you any such thing.

Does this plan work? Andrew Carnegie worked five years, saved his wages, and then put it all into a tech stock: telegraph. You might have heard the name. His hobby was building concert halls and libraries.

If you don't want to quit school, here is PLAN B. Get "Dress For Success" by John Molloy and consider his advice for students:
- Vocal skill will affect your earning power more than any other detail.
- Acting skill will get you a job offer even when you are not qualified for the job.
- The most important benefit you get from school is your address book.
- The difference between a successful person and a very successful person is that the latter knows hundreds more people, and knows them quite well.
- No school will teach you any of the above. They don't even teach how to do well in their school.

What can I do to overcome my emptiness?

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