So here is my little story . . I went through a stage when i was younger . My mother being an unaware alchoholic and me feeling like she didnt love me ... it was like ... if your mom doesnt love you how can anyone else . I exoerienced physical abuse from her as well . . Black eyes , scratches like a day before my boyfriend and my anniversary. It wasn't even our fight . Additional to that , i was going through a rebellious stage . I was always the girl that parents wanted their children to hang around and be like . Great grades and always smiling . i was pretty mature for my age as well and not very girly , not very naive when it came to boys and i never really wanted a boyfriend . I was young . I met my current boyfriend at fifteen . He's my bestfriend and like a brother to me ... i know that sounds weird . But that's the kind of bond we have . Honestly i didn't even want to be committed to him but he loved me so much and proved so that pretty much drew me in.. anyone who proved that they could put up with me and my baggage and the bad attitude that i developed deserved my love in return .. so anyways . . In my mind, i felt like let me get back at my mom . Let me do something that will hurt her the way she hurt me for years . Andi debated and debated . The mmost important thing to me was not to lose my virginity if i knew i was going to regret it later . Dont lose it off the silly words "i love you"... so i lost it .. i dont regret losing it to him.. i regret losing it at that age . And now... my dad , i wanted and am still going to get a tattoo that says "forgive me father" but i am talking about my biological father . We were never close but as i get older my father and i have become ccloser . I want a tattoo to symbolize me realizing and overcoming .. progression .. i want the tatt to be on my thigh .. i just don't know how to symbolize it in an image ... so if anyone can help me that would be great .. of you can incorporate my story in there in any way , tht would be wonderful . Thank you .