So last year, a friend and I started dating. It was a beautiful relationship: no fights, same interests, and the potential for that to go on indefinitely. However, when he had to leave to go to college, he had a lot of trouble leaving our sleepy old town, and, amongst the fear of a long distance relationship tanking our friendship and the fact he might never move on with his life because he was so connected to me, I broke up with him, hoping to help him adjust better to his new life without old anchors holding him down.
I wasn't troubled by this decision. I dated another guy, went through the next year just fine, even talking to him twice about a video game we had both enjoyed that was getting an update. I was happy to hear that, a few months back, he had even found a new girlfriend, and the interest that powered him through school had helped land him a job at his school.
However, as I am preparing myself to enter college life as well, I have found myself overwhelmed by thoughts of him. I remember our friendship, the connection we had shared. Moments with friends hold the vibe of being incomplete, my songs from his playlist bear his presence, and occasionally I feel a deep, Panging, longing to be with this guy who had understood me so well, had been there for me to support me even when he didn't always know how to tackle the situation at hand. He's even been in my dreams, where, after Facebook messaging and finding some coincidence in location, we simply talked, laughed, gamed... Basically enjoyed each other's presence, and in a completely platonic way. Regardless of whether it was the friendship before or the dating later, I miss the connection we had shared, that I feel like I have missed out on. I miss his humor, his laugh, his personality, his intellect.... You get the idea. I
don't want to be stalkery and pester him, be *that one ex,* undo any of his settling, ect. I don't want to take away his girlfriend from him. I just miss him, dearly, and I don't know what to do.
