My ex Kevin and I dated several years ago when I was in college in another state. I loved him like crazy then, and he says that he loved me like crazy too. But he had issues with drugs back then and he admits that he didn't give me enough attention because of his lifestyle. He wanted me to stay and be with him in Texas, but I chose to move back to Montana, mostly to see if he would change his ways and if he would try hard to stop me.
Ever since then we have gotten back in touch periodically. He will contact me out of the blue and he says he has never felt the same about anyone else. He has cleaned up his act now, gotten a very good job and is a full time single dad to a five year old daughter.
I went to visit him a couple years ago and we still had amazing chemistry, I felt so alive with him and we still had more than a spark almost like a spiritual connection. We did not sleep together when I visited because I knew it would not lead to a relationship at that time as he was in a custody battle with his ex. I wanted him to ask me to come back and be with him, but I understand that things were just to overwhelming at that stage in his life.
He still calls me and texts me a lot. Saying he wants to marry me and that he thinks about me all the time and knows we made a mistake when we were younger, he hopes he didn't miss his opportunities.
On my end, I think about him all day every day. First thing in the morning to last thing at night. I sometimes wake up in the middle of the night thinking of him and the connection we still have when we talk. After I finally told him my feelings I felt like I was alive again and he says he still feels the same way I do. On the negative side however, he is still so busy working long hours to support his daughter and being a single parent that he still doesn't really have a lot of time and energy to give to a relationship-- this is my assessment, not something he said. He says he wants to be together. I want to help him and be happy with him and his daughter, should I risk my life in Montana (great job, so so relationship, not much family) to move back to Texas and be with him?
