We've been friends for four years, ever since high school we've been best friends. We used to joke about being gay because we were so close, which I found funny at first. Then she got a boyfriend, I was really happy for her but at the same time upset that I wouldn't see her so much. She's been with him for two years and I haven't made the effort to get to know this guy very well, but she assumes its because I'm extremely introverted (her boyfriend is too). My sister made me realise that I could just be jealous. The lesbian act stopped being funny when I started to second guess everything she says. I read into everything now, over analyse every movement and word.
So, she's with her boyfriend still, and we are still best friends. It feels wrong not to tell her, and like deception in not telling her. Damned if I do and damned if I don't.

I don't really understand my feelings on this either, am I attracted to her or just caught up in the idea of being attracted to my best friend? (I sort of consider myself pansexual)