It just feels unfair that I'm constantly putting him through my moods. I'm not able to give him my full attention and that's not fair to either of us.
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The first line of defense against mental instability is B vitamins. Get nutritional yeast powder and/or B-100 pills. Vitamin B2 is a water soluble dye that turns urine bright yellow. When the color fades, it's time for another dose. Read some books about nutrition so you know how to eat right.
Magnesium strengthens muscles, calms nerves, stops cramps, and fights infections. Get epsom salt. It is cheap, five bux for a year's supply. Put a dose in a glass with water to cover and stir until it dissolves. Fill the glass with lemonade and drink it. You can take it without the lemonade but you won't like the taste. Milk of magnesia is more expensive but nicer tasting and gentler laxative action. Your choice.
First off, talk to HIM about this. This is a decision that affects him after all so he deserves to at least hear that you're considering it.
Second, get some outside opinions. From a psych-type if you can, but also from your friends and family, people who know you. It could be that your perception of yourself as a burden is partly due to your mental illness in the first place.
Third; I really doubt taking B vitamins will fix everything. If things were that simple... But some basic physical self-care like making sure you get enough sleep and eat regular meals can't /hurt/.