Hi I'm a teenager and I've been messin' with depression for three years which is pain because, as a juvenile, that's a pretty decent bite out of my lifetime.
It started gradually but was generally easy to ignore because I had pals at school, but then I moved and I've been at this other school for the past two years and, not that it's bad (the teachers tend to be pretty chill), I'm just not much up for it or the people here.
It's gotten pretty bad at times but my guardian knows about it kind of and has me on this medicine nonsense (Zoloft, 25MB) but he's a little stubborn with it.
Everything I used to like isn't fun or worthwhile anymore, and all I want to do is sit here. I've had pretty good grades but they've all dropped significantly because I justd on't really care. I just went to the E.R but, since I'm too logical and overthinking-y (and therefore won't kill myself), my dad turned away from like a uh psych ward since in my state it's kind'a filled with a bunch of druggy weirdos that might stab me and I'd have to be there for a while (I kind of wanted to go).
So instead I'm gonn'a fill out papers tomorrow and uhh see some psychiatrist? But talking has never, ever proved helpful, and I've basically lost hope at this point and don't like myself much as it is.. Any, uhh, tips, or anything?
None of that 'oh it'll get better.. keep going.. people like you, it's not worth it' bullshit, please.