Whenever I'm upset I force myself to faint, when I don't get the ecstasy from it I do it over and over and over again, nearly 10 times each time I'm depressed. It removes my feelings. How is this going to affect me when I'm older? Or how is it affecting me now? I'm 16. I feel like I'm a rock in water right now and like I'm the only addict of fainting in the internet, I can't find anyone else who knows about this or relates