... three years and we are getting married in October. We shard a lot of our life goals, we get along great, you could say it's the perfect relationship.
When I was little I met someone online, I was 11 she was 10. We used instant messaging and eventually video cameras, we talked on the phone, she was the perfect girl. We became close friends and we talked that if we didn't live in different countries we would happily be together, we kept talking for years and years. I got a girlfriend here and she got highly upset, we understood nothing could ever happen due to the distance but those feelings were and always have been there. We kept in touch, I became single and just kept our dynamic. Suddenly a possibility for us to meet happened as my best friend often goes to where she lives, he is from there. I met my fiance and I kept in touch with my friend, but we never addressed the elephant in the room. Over the weekend she was able to come close to me and without a question I drove with my friend to meet her, my fiance knows we are friends but not of the deep feelings. I was happy I could finally meet this girl I basically grew up with, that I cared so much for....but all those feelings came with it as well. Didnt cheat on my fiance, it was hard not to, the chemistry was there, the feelings, the mood, everything even better than we always dreamed of. She is leaving back to her country soon but she might, most likely, end up moving to the US if not that city maybe even closer to where I live.
I love my fiance, but I also love this girl that possibly knows me better than anyone. I know nothing with her could ever happen, but I dont know what to do with these feelings. Only my best friend knows of this situation and he helped but this is such a peculiar scenario that I don't know how to deal with it. I can't stop loving any of them and I am getting married but I want to have my friend in my life