... even anything that requires hard work, not any hard work but specifically things im interested in example Bodybuilding, video games etc
i have to invest all my blood, sweat and money into it because i want to reach maximum results, not like any shortcuts but just love to get it done as efficiently as possibly.. anyway so i was bodybuilding for about 3 months and i was just putting all my spare time and money and everything into it so i could slowly reach my goals and at the time it felt like i wanted to do this for my whole life but one day i realized you can't half ass bodybuilding like you have to invest all your time into it if you want to do it properly and i had massive goals ..
and it wouldve had to lead into some sort of career in fitness like a personal trainer, nutritionist but i want to do something academic as a career path, like you cant be a lawyer fulltime and bodybuild full time .. and once i realized that i literally lost all the motivation and drive i had to go to the gym.. and havent been since.. i should also mention i have bad commitment issues.. clearly its been 4 months and i dont know what to do with myself.. everyone says go to the gym just to stsy fit and healthy but i feel like im wasting my time.. like i said, i have to put everything i have into something or it seems pointless...
but ive never really known what i want to do for a career but i honestly dont have any real hobbies or interests ..
and im sicm of feeling like this, i also have depression and social anxiety
just need so feedback and thoughts about my situation, if anyone has felt the same thing or whateva
thanks