O.K, I don't want to sound petty or anything (which I'm pretty sure I do), but I'm suffering from some serious sibling rivalry here.
I'm jealous of my younger sister because she's so much better then me at everything. I mean, I find something I enjoy doing and I think I'm good at it, but then it turns out, she's so much better then me at it. For example, I wanted to be a writer, I try my hardest at writing but all I ever get is a B and she's getting all As and all the teachers are praising her about it and she's getting awards for it and stuff.
She get's medals in almost every sport she competes in while I'm the one always coming last no matter how much I try.
She's really pretty and thin while I'm 'fat' (Even though I've only got a belly from poor posture and lack of exercise and am not considered 'over-weight', everyone else seems to be pointing it out all the time). and 'ugly' (I'm terrified to look in mirrors at the shops and everyone thinks I look like a guy). She get's asked out all the time, I've only been asked out once.
She acts like I'm an idiot and she said it herself that 'She's smarter then me and all the teachers say so' (Cut me some slack- I'm ADHD and ASD). She has all the friends in the world. Me on the other hand, yeah, I've got friends, but apart from my boyfriend, no one really actively seeks me out to just hang with me or be around me.
I've tried talking to my sister, but it's not her fault that she succeeds at everything, that's just her.
I know I sound petty, but I'm just looking for a way to deal with these feelings. I just want to be good that she's not and I want someone to tell me how good I am at something, not compare me to my sister.
Help?