My loved one passed away, and I have serious depressions?!?
Okay so my loved one passed away about 4 months ago, around February . He lives in Vietnam and so do I, but I moved to America 3 yrs ago, We were close friends ever since little, he was like a big brother to me, we grew up together . And I realized as I got older I start catching feelings for him. He was really caring &sweer, were 6 ages apart but it don't matter. Last last summer it was 2013 I visited Vietnam, it was literally the best year ever because he started catches feelings for me too ! I was happy, but as soon as I left Vietnam to go back to America we still communicate by texting, but one day I received a shocking news from my mom . She said that he passed away from blood cancer, I broke down crying nonstop , for so many weeks , no eating jus tears , I jus can't believe he's gone forever I can never hear his voice again . 4 months passed by I was getting better but then as soon I visited Vietnam again for summer , I am currently living with my grandparents and cousins rn, and his house is really close from mine only 2 houses away but whenever I pass his house, I jus can't hold in the tears knowing he's not here nomore. I visited his house today and grave and was crying my eyes out , it hurts knowing he's not here with me nomore , why God have to take him away from me and this world! I'm jus broken rn and I don't know what to do ! Can someone please talk to me and give me sum advice ? Thank you ! <3. And any good songs for a loved one that passed away ?

We never dated we just had feelings for each other. And I feel so damn bad because from the past I was being so mean to him i ignored his text :'( and all that stuff. All I want is to hear his voice again ;( we don't got any pictures together ugh ! I'm broken guys ! Help please !