Why did it take so long though? She was one of my very first friends, I knew her practically my whole life, and now she's dead. We were really close. She was one year older than I am, and I'm not even in high school yet. She died in a car crash last summer, back in August, and I didn't cry. I didn't cry until now, when something reminded me of her and I just burst into tears. I thought I'd feel better if I cried, but I just feel sadder. Why did it take so long? Why hasn't it made me feel better? Hasn't it been proved that crying makes you feel better about something? I miss her.