I know it's the PTSD talking,but he gets like this everytime he's mad.He yells at me and my mom and he throws stuff.I can't help but cry because it scares me.Most of the time this makes him even madder and he says "I'll give you something to cry about."This is when I usually get hit.I usually try to outrun him or fight him,but 9 times out of 10 this just makes him madder.Tonight he hit me really hard on the side of my head and I went deaf in one ear for a couple of seconds.I ran to my room crying.A little while later he came up and made sure I was ok and hugged me and kissed me and said "Daddy just had a bad day."I'm so sick of his bad days.I'm scared he's gonna end up really hurting me or my mom one day.