A while back, I had a manic episode one night and freaked out on my boyfriend of 9 months. I blacked out of what I said- but I do remember how harmful everything I said was. I remember the pain it caused him and how he pushed away from me. A week later, I visited the hospital and learned that I'm bipolar and it wasn't my fault. That it was out of my control and my emotions couldn't be handled at that time. Right now, I'm seeking medication and taking it along with talking to a psychologist about my problems and mood swings. A few days afterwards, I had a friend take advantage of my emotions and caused me to do further damage on my exboyfriend- hurting him more. I cut that person (exfriend) out of my life for trying to make me closer to him..
I'm sure I won't get the relationship back with my boyfriend, but I still feel the pain of how much I caused him. I don't know if he knows that I'm bipolar now or what I'm going through, but can I get some input of what I should do or how to process everything that happened?