well , m 20 years old girl ... I live in the middle east- jordan ....
I belong to muslim family , but my beliefs has changed since 2 years ago .....
M more into hinduism philosphy and buddhist teachings ......
Now m so confused... I feel nothing, its like living in desert and noone is there for you ....
I feel as m on the point where no roads is there and i have to make my own way ....

People say ; live your life but i cant do it , whats life for real? I keep questioning and that makes my life sucks ....
i am 20 now and it isnt the time to question things , i should plan to my future and career now ... I know all this but i cant ..... I feel that i belong to other place not here ...
i feel so much lonely here ...... I cant stay alone like that ... Maybe thats why i am interested in religions although i study engineering..

I wanna bring some change to the world , and to myself too... I dont mean to show off ... I really wanna this but m helpless ...

Whenever i tell anyone this, they start preaching to their own beliefs and thats what i really hate .... I need someone who guides me not conivences me of what he/ she already believes in....


Sorry for my long question , i really wanna say more .....
Do you really think that you can help me in this , please type your email so i can msg you back ..

Its serious question , hope not to get spam responses.. Thanks