I've always been painfully shy, but recently after reading about social anxiety I've realised I have many of the symptoms.
I panic at the simplest things such as walking down the street alone or waiting outside a classroom, in case I look weird etc. I constantly feel like all eyes are on me and I've also found that I struggle to make friends as I'll never be the first to start a conversation as I would never know what to say. I won't even put my hand up to ask a queation ,I'd rather get it wrong than have to repeat and refine what I'm going to say in my head a hundred times. I even do that when I have to say 'here' in the regiater so that I know I will sound normal.
I hate not knowing what to say to people and often just ignore people to avoid any awkwardness. This means that people constantly tease me and make me feel stupid because they think I'm rude and feel like I'm better than everyone else and can therefore not speak to them. Which is obviously not the case. I'd kill to be able to start a conversation with aomeone. I just can't. And I have no idea whether this is just be being any as a teenager, because that's what everyone else seems to think.