i dont understand why everyone tells me "theres so much to live for," when in my life there isnt. im in highschool and my grades are horrible which probably means i wont get into a good college or ever be successful in life. its too late now. my ADHD makes it nearly impossible. now im not having a "pity party," or feeling sorry for myself, im just going to be honest. im ugly af. i know i'll never get a boyfriend or have a family one day like everyone else. also, not that i blame them, but my parents and family HATE me. they yell at me and think im not trying when they literally dont understand that im trying my hardest and its just not good enough. they dont even say they love me. a lot of people say that suicide is selfish and that it hurts everyone else, but then i think about it. who would i be hurting? no one cares and i know it. NO ONE. my parents often talk about how difficult and annoying i am, and i feel like just a burden to them. i've lost all intrest in any of the activities i used to enjoy. i used to have emotion and feel things like happiness and sadness and love but now i feel nothing at all. its like being dead but forced into a living persons body. people always ask where i see myself in 10 years and to be honest i see myself in the graveyard. i dont think i actually have a furture its like i just can't see myself being successful in life. i know its probably dumb to ask this on here but its so hard to talk about my problems in person and i have no one to tell them to.