(Sorry about my awful grammar, it's never been my strong point)
I'm thirteen years old. This is really difficult to explain, but I'm constantly afraid that these monsters going to hurt me. When I was little I had these nightmares about monsters and demons, but they eventually stopped. However, for about three or so years I've become really, really paranoid that these monsters I made up are going to hurt or kill me. I HAVE to do certain things in certain orders or they'll find me. It's really weird and I understand shit like this doesn't even exist. But when I tell myself that there's nothing after me, I still find myself doing these little 'rituals' (I'm not sure what to call them) to keep myself safe. It's usually just little things like putting objects away in a certain places, but sometimes it's really strange stuff. For example; if I'm watching a video on the internet, I have to pause it at exactly half way through for some reason. If the video isn't an even number, it makes me feel really agitated and stressed. Sometimes it's not because I'm afraid that the 'monsters' will hurt me, I just have to do stuff like this and I don't know why. I don't have any mental health issues I know of, could this be a sign of something?
Is there a problem with my mental health?
- Posted:
- 3+ months ago by Rosa Acic...
- Topics:
- mental health
Answers (1)
Let me start off by saying that as a fellow aged kid, I really hope you aren't making all that up which will render my long (sorry this is the only skill I have) answer completely useless. I have to admit that it's kinda scary in the dark and I am also annoyed by odd numbers. You needn't worry about your mental health much. Pausing videos at halfway through is just an act to keep one entertained which shows that you are bored. I never set the TV's volume at a number not a multiple of 5 and also skip videos ahead certain seconds to see if I can. Your 'rituals', are not but little problems that occur in people who like things assorted and stuff, or I think so at least. And when I need to go up to my room at 3 am, even I go up, turn on the light, come down, turn off the light downstairs and go up and hold the corner of the blanket and quickly turn off the light and jump on my bed. It's not that uncommon though. I've just about completely outgrown that stuff and I'm sure you will too - hopefully. Hope this helped!
I can promise you I'm not making this up, and thank you for your answer. I really hope my question didn't make me seem like an attention seeker, but this has been worrying me for a very long time.
I can promise you I'm not making this up. Thank you for your answer.