First , I would like to say that my English aren’t very well because I’m from another country or continent i should say! So.. yeah..
Well, I have known this girl for about four years… we were together in high school but we changed schools two years ago and I could only see her at the basketball team. Her name is Jane and she is a Muslim. Jane doesn’t seem like a very feminine girl but either gay. We used to have a lot of fun, together, or with other friends and she didn’t know that I had a crash on her or anyone else! . Although I didn’t think she was interested in me or any other girl we had this kind of ‘flirty’ situation...You know, and I could see it in her eyes when we were talking..! one day she told me (well first my friends) and then me that she saw me in her sleep being her girlfriend!! A year ago I quit the basketball team and then was when we were rarely see each other and mostly with other friends but we didn’t stop messaging. One day came out the issue about lesbians an staff ..well I told her my opinion but she was all like that being gay is a sin, but she didn’t matter other people being gay.. So we had a fight and we didn’t talk for about a month! I was totally mad at her because of what she said. It was like I didn’t know that side of her and I couldn’t deal with it because I was so in love with her. Now we are both seventeen. We are not as close as we were, but I see her once in a while and I call her sometimes and she does too… she wants me to come back to the basketball team and some days ago she invited me to her birthday party.. but I don’t feel like going there .. I don’t understand it at all …she is not very comfortable with boys but when it comes to talk about them she says that she likes that guy from her school and staff like that but she has never done anything with a guy. Even now after all this time I can I see how she looks at me and always smiles as we talk…I don’t get it... I wish I could have the carriage to tell her but it’s not that easy… I’m leaving in a small city and a girl loving a girl isn’t a very frequent occurrence… but even if she was into me she would never tell me…please if you have any advice?