Firstly, I would like to say that im sorry if my english arent very well because im not from here !!...so..yeah ..
Well, I'm in this situation with that girl I have a crash on for about 3 years.Her name is Jane and she is a muslim (we are in the same age but im a christian).She doesn't look like a very feminine or either a gay girl and she isn't the shy type of person.Jane and I used to have a lot of fun together or with friends but I could always see that ' look' into her eyes when we were talking.All these were when we were going to the same high school , after a year I could only see her in our basketball team because we changed schools .We were still good friends but we didn't hang out so much because I couldnt see her very often .One day she told my friends she saw me in her dream being her girlfriend (she though it was funny and I react like that too)I forgot to mention that none of us is openly gay ,bi or anything else! ) a year after, I quit the basketball team and that was when we didn't hang out very often but we kept our contact ...one day came out the issue about lesbians.she told me that she thought that being gay is a sin but she didn't matter other people were (I think she said that because of her religion and not because of what she truly believed) and that was what I hated the most , people telling you what to believe , then I realise that I didn't know that side of her and I was so mad because of this .! So we had a fight and we didn't talk each other for about two months ..but it was so stupid ...I didnt even care ...! I mean, im not a lesbian, neither bi or straight, im just in love with her and that's all! Its damn love !! Where's the problem!? Of course I haven't told her that I love her and I wish I had the carriege but I don't and I know it ..we are living in a small city and things like that are not very usual or normal (you know a girl loving a girl) but I dont get it at all , she says that kissing guys seems disgusting but recently she is talking about some cute guy from her school(she was never talking about guys she liked ) but I dont realy think she doing it for real but just to hide who she is 'copying' what the other girls do ! (she has never been with a guy before but that may be because of her religion again )( once she has told me that if her dad sees her with a guy that won't end up good) now she wants me to go back to the basketball team and she also invited me to her birthday party!
Please any advice ? How can I know if she has feelings for me ? But even if she has I dont think that she will ever show me..
PC: if it helps she is living with her father and sisters because her mother has passed away when she was yung..
Thanx 4 ur time:)