OK... so... this is kind of cliché but I'll go for it anyway. I've been suicidal for a few years and only recently got help for it because I only admitted it to my family this year. The 'help' isn't working and I decided I needed to kind of... latch myself onto somebody else. that way, I could be dependant on him and him on me and that would give me some sort of reason to stay alive. And... of course... he did the predictable and cheated on me. It's not that I'm worried about though, it was my reaction. He called me to admit it and I just... laughed. I laughed and then just started screaming and now all I have in my head are these images of revenge. I imagine myself dying and then sitting as a ghost with him and watching him go crazy like he made me. You know he never even apologised to me, he seemed angry at me for being worth nothing to him... so... this is my payback I guess. I DON'T want advice on my suicidal tendencies, but I just want to know, do you think I'm crazy? I don't feel like the care I'm getting is helping, only getting worse.