... surprise I met my now boyfriend shortly after. He is so amazing and supportive and wants me to pursue my dreams all whilst still being at home waiting for me. I love him so much and can see a real future with this guy. Anyways...
I got a job as an Au Pair about a month ago, and when they interviewed me they said they wanted someone long term so their kids could have stability. I agreed to this as I had every intention on staying here. I have fallen in love with the family, they're all so amazing.
Recently however, my boyfriend back home (UK) has had some horrible news and is going through a really tough time. He's just found out his dad has cancer, his close friend died in a motorbike accident and his best friend whom he lives with just had an overdose. All of this in the space of a few weeks plus he suffers with severe depression too. I feel so helpless and guilty being here. I booked a flight home in 2 months time to be with him. But now I'm having second thoughts. I'm completely divided, I want to stay here with this family but I also want/need to go and be with my boyfriend.
If I decided on staying here, I would probably end things with my boyfriend as it's not fair on either of us (he cant come out to visit due to work and money issues) and neither can I for the same reasons. But I want to marry this guy so the thought of being without him kills me. However I love it here so much and if I came home and something went wrong between us, I think I would really regret coming back. thoughts?