... even born. I've pushed my whole life to make things work and my family made me quit school in order to pay bills with them. No one will hire me with this nurologicsl Disablity because I black out and get dizzy a lot and done times can't see well enough for long periods. I don't know what I'm good at any more but I'm not dead damnit. I hav ablities. I can't even understand simple math after this car accident. I want to go back to school but I really need a part time job. My government cash won't pay enough for the rent, and bills and food even. Every thing is a waiting list and most things are beyond my reach in one way or another. I wanted to be a theater director, film director/writer, writer of books and plays but I can't even get a job at an art store right now. One day I might want to be a theater teach or art teacher. But who would take on a disabled teach and how can I even get there in this state. Every day pushes me further over the edge. I need something in life or I will explode. I'm feeling more and more that I just can't take it any more. I need doctors note for school, in home care so which I need so I don't fall in the bath room etc. But I have an HMO and they decide everything. Docs won't give me notes at all right now.... I need a note from a doctor to help in school to learn better in school with my brain troubles, I hav. E'en trying to get one but this is out of control. I'm at the edge and can't see how I will make it work any more. I wanted to do so much in life and now I feel worthless
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This life can be so hard to deal with at times! What you said reminds me of a bible character that you may have heard of. His name is Job. If you haven't heard of him, he was a man who experienced much suffering, all his children were killed in one day, he lost all his possessions, and he was even afflicted with a horrible disease. These things were so distressing to Job that he too wished that he was never born. (Job 3:1-26)
As a faithful man of God, possibly the worst part of his situation was that he didn't know why he was suffering so much. He didn't know who was causing his troubles. And for us today, sometimes the hardest part of our suffering is that we don't understand why we suffer. Some people think that suffering is part of God's plan for us, they say that he gives us problems in order to make us stronger or put us to the test. Yet that can't be true because the bible tells us that our distress causes God distress.(Isaiah 63:9) Also that he is the one who helps us to endure our distress. (Psalm 46:1). So why would he help us if he was the one who caused our problems?
Having learned the reason why we humans suffer so has helped me personally to endure many problems. I'm sure it will help you too. You can find the answer in a publication entitled "what does the bible really teach ". Chapter 11 of that book " why does God allow suffering " explains simply and logically the reason why we suffer. You can download it or read it online at JW.org. Click on the publications tab