I feel happy and then when i do what makes me happy.. I think why am i doing this. Whats wrong with me. And it just makes me feel 10 times worse. I am always mean to my friends and i never used to be but they just annoy me all the time and ugh i hate that feeling. I want to leave. Run away but i couldn't do that to my family even though i want to so bad or better i just want i forget about my mom because then i willl feel normal. And not abandoned.