im 12 i met my father in Feb he was the best father ever and done everything for me,after a while i met my half bro and sis! so things were going great until.. my confirmation he said he had a sore back (which he was complaining about for the past 2 or 3 weeks before) so he left and he text me to say he was in the doctor office but he left locator on! so i clicked it and it said he was in belfast!? he was soposed to go to the doctors NOT belfast so everytime he text me he was going further and further and even further up the belfast road.. i asked my aunt on his side who i met a week before him why he would have done that (my aunt doesnt like him so she tells the truth) she said that he has a girlfriend in belfast! soooo i asked my half sis, she said he DID have a girlfriend! so that made me mad at him and i asked him why and he denied it. so after that he started IGNORING my messages! and braking all promises and seeing my bro and sis and not me so that went on for few weeks then.. i asked him if i could see my bro and sis he said come down at weekend but i was on holiday so i came home early to see them on the day i was getting ready he said he had work! and that next weekend he put up photos of him and his girlfriend in belfast city last weekend.. so i told him in a long message this that and the other and said at the end "if u dont start being a proper dad ur losing a daughter" he said he was busy with work even tho he wasnt.. so he kept ignoring me and stuff... then he moved to belfast without telling me and brought my half bro and sis there 5 times and me not once and i never knew until my sis sent me a voice message.. ok so thats the SHORT version! i know i know its long enough... but i need help i hate him and want to kill him but somewhere i dont know where but somewhere in my heart i still love him.. i want to have a dad. i want him to be what he was like before!. and i dont want to cry myself to sleep and be sad all day ANYMORE so please dont go pass this question this is a very important queston in my life and i need answers..... maybe give me a message to send or advise on what to do or anything that will help! i asked this question before i got leave him but i CANT leave him for 2 reasons: i still love him somehow and i would be leaving my half bro and sis that i love!!