I have been struggling with this since January this year. Been married for almost 4 years and together for 8. The reason this all started was because I was dealing with a lot of stress mainly financial stress of helping my husband pay off our debt so we can move out this year and finally start our own little family. I worried about not meeting our goals. Then we went to an event where we met up with one of our guy friends. I found this friend attractive and started to question whether or not I still loved my husband. I started to feel really guilty about it and then freaked out and started to over think everything having to do with my husband and our marriage all the way down to how we kissed and if there was feeling. I pulled myself out by remembering a time we shared a deep connection and realized that I still have feelings for my husband. We are no longer friends with the guy. The next day we were fine until the evening when I broke down and started to cry. I explained what was going on to my husband. He pulled me close and hugged me tight everything started to get better. Now I'm confused because I know I don't want a divorce but for some reason the word is still stuck roominating in my brain. I can't seem to shake the word completely no matter how hard I have tried and it bothers me.
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well the reason that its still badgering you is you have allowed it to take control of your thinking whats really bad is that you are still allowing it to control you were talking about a upset in your marriage disterbing trend wear you let this consume you i think you may have anxiety issues along with constant time on your hands where you can be mislead and try to let god into your life and ask him to help you with theses ever changing thoughts and why your having them ask him to help guide you in the right direction