Uh okay so I'm 14 and urm for the past 1-2 years I've just felt really empty and sad and have zero motivation to do anything, everything that used to make me happy doesn't anymore, and when something good happens I just don't care or feel happy about it. It's been getting to the point where I'll cry out of frustration and anger because I don't know what's wrong with me and I just want this to be over. And I know I seem like a whiny 10 year old complaining about how hard life is but I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm to scared to ask my mom for help because I'm to scared she'll think I'm being over dramatic and annoying. And I'm really scared for when summer comes up because then she might see my cuts on my legs and I don't want to disappoint her or get her mad at me, I can already see what the look on her face would be if she saw them. I cant ask for help from my friends because one of -- holy shit my mom just came into my room and I was crying and she asked me what was wrong and I tried to hide my face under my blankets (because I look like a whale when I cry) and then she tried to pull them off me to see my face and I told her to stop and she just got up and walked away and now she's watching her show-- --she just texted me saying I should see a councillor if I'm going to keep being like this and I said that I'm okay, like WTFFF why did I say that it's okay I'm actually so mad at myself this could've been my only chance and I already screwed it up-- Okay I've had enough "excitement" for today I can't type anymore I'm like shaking lol... so uh if you have anything to say please say something ☺️☺️