I was addicted to meth at the time, and underwent a psychosis. Im not sure what the hospital wrote was mentally wrong with me. While i was there, i was told i cannot own a gun for 5 years. I was released after the mandatory 72hour hold. Im not using drugs any more and am almost back to the way i used to be. During this time, i took off a semester form college to recover.
My entire life, i wanted to be a navy seal. I've been researching and it seems i wont have a chance to be a seal, or join the armed forces because of my drug use, and 5150 status. I've been having troubles getting through each day lately; but the one thing that has been helping is training for the navy. Since i found out its not likely for me to become enlisted, i've lost a lot of will to do things.
I dont train because i think it fun. I do it because i set a goal of becoming a seal to myself. I like outdoors, guns, cars, anything manly. So i dont feel like to train for myself if i dont get anywhere. I dont see the point. i dont want to look good for myself, because i feel i will look good no matter what. I dont need big muscles to look good. So i'm loosing my will to train again.
So, im asking if someone knows a way it would still be possible to pursue my dream of being a navy seal? If not, does anyone have any advice on how to go about living the rest of my life without fulling your only dream?