i struggled with starving myself for some time, and i lost some weight. after a couple weeks of restricted so much food, i started to eat healthier. i realized i can lose weight the better way. after about two weeks i had my first binge. i didnt know what it was exactly as iv never done such a thing before. scared of gaining weight i restricted again; soon i was stuck in the starve/binge cycle. yet again i felt the binges were going to put weight on me and starving myself wouldnt help, i put a healthy nornal eating pattern set in my head. thats not helping though. iv been binging basically everyday now. i really need help. my dad doesnt want me to go to the doctors about it, he believes i can solve this problem but i cant, i really cant