I know the feeling. I was in your situation also and I started reaching out for ideas also. I was helped to see that our Grand Creator is a happy God and wanted us to be happy also. My greatest help came when I was offered a free bible study. At first I was like bible study how could that really help me but then I said why not what do I have to loose anyhow. So I accepted the bible study. During my bible study I came to find out that God is so loving and caring that it touched me emotionally enough to practice what I was learning. Most importantly it bought about a peace and tranquility that you have to experience for yourself. Let me just mention a few scriptures that positively turn my life around :
1) James 4:8,"Draw close to God and he will draw close to you." This actually had me thinking how could I draw close to God?
2) John 17:3"This means everlasting life, their coming to know you,the only true God,and the one whom you sent,Jesus Christ ."This is when I knew I needed to have a bible study to draw close to my God and to know what I have to do to gain everlasting life?
3) During my bible study God reassured me that I am not not alone for at 1 Peter 5:7 he feels me,"While you throw all your anxiety on him,because he cares for you." This made me smile knowing that God promise to have my back.
4) John 3:16,"For God loved the world so much that he gave his only- begotten Son,so that everyone exercising faith in him might not,be destroyed but have everlasting life." This help me to see,the loving,kind,caring God is,to give up his son for all mankind. He did not hold back the precious ransom of his son to set us free sin.
These is just a few scriptures that help me to see the need of putting God first in my life,then when I was going through my depression. Studying the bible helped me to be a better person. I am now a happy person and the peace and tranquility that I feel now I will not trade it for anything this world have to offer. Now I am focus on helping as many as possible to come into a relation with God and reap the wonderful benefits of serving him. It's the best life ever. Don't take my word for it,please just try it.
If you will like to discuss more, have more questions or will like to start a bible study please feel free to contact me or jw.org