My life has been full of lies and people don't understand me because everyone thinks im 'retarded' and 'useless.' I'm a sensative 12 year old that is constantly going through the worst s#it from my family, friends, and people in school. Even my mom and dad render me useless because im the only in my family and the middle child. I get bullied all the time from my sisters, which leads to me getting in trouble by my parents for things i never start. My sisters will just annoy me and then start hurting me, but when i do what my parents told me to do (defend myself) my parents get me in trouble! I basically have no friends that care about me. There are three options i'm thinking of right now: running away to an orphanage (i know there is one thats is pretty far, but i have my phone to help and items that i've used on camping trips my dad forced me to go to. The other things i can do are call child safety or something like that, or committing suicide. I really need help. If you can tell me what i need to do, it would probably make my life better. Thank you all and have a great day/night. :)