I've got severe depression, everyday for years I've been bullied by so many people I can't even count it in my head, my family hate me, I've been told by them time and time again I'm just an embarrassment to the family they don't care about me. I'm on anti depressants and they aren't helping and most nights I just get off the school bus and not go home, I just sit in a quiet alley where nobody goes and just cry.
My only other option is to just end my life now, people say your life gets better but it won't and never will be a life worth living, it's a life nobody would want. You see people who look so happy and I've wished to have that but it's never worked. Please just give me an honest answer- if I decided to overdose how many paracetamol would it take to kill me, if not what other ways could I kill myself, i don't care if they are painful the amount of pain I've been put through when people have beat me up or just the words they say nothing could hurt as much (and no I'm not attention seeking, you are my only hope because nobody else will tell me..)