I m 18 years old girls...at age of 14 my cousion rape me.now I hate sex....and lack feelngs?

i think you still have the trauma of what happened to you, i suggest you might need to have to see a counselor so she can advised you and help you overcome the feeling of being dirty about having sex or liking guys its an effect of the rape incident that is why you are acting like that and hope that a counselor can help you so you might live a normal life again its a step to step process but i know that it will work if you determined